sexy bitch!

sexy bitch.

why have i started saying this? I mean, all my friends are apparently sexy bitches now. and I don't know where it all started.........

on a different note,

I am about to embark on operation 'Y'. what does this operation entail? nothing. if you call giving your whole personality a makeover nothing. I aim to be pretentious now. Like a proper poseur. but i'll do it so well, it doesn't look like I'm posing.

no longer shall your hero be the carefree devil-may-care headbanging to LOG, yet secretly listening to bowling for soup motorhead. He will transform to a literature appreciating, classical music listening ninny. ok, im an ass. just because I dont read it now, doesnt mean i won't like it. lets give it a fair chance. but in life, are there any fair chances? i sure hope so.

I like Pantera, and I like wearing jeans and T shirts (simple basic, solid black grey red) and chunky watches with sports shoes. This is about as far from over-compensating as it can get. seriously. These are personal choices I make, because of my tastes. I do believe I'm a sensitive guy. not the most sensitive guy in the world, but neverthless. My wearing a LOG shirt is as over-compensating as a girl wearing eye makeup, or waxing, or shaving or shoes with pink flowers.

I love girls who do all that, because these girls are acting girly, which is what they should be acting like. why the fuck do I not get to tell every one that I like wearing my LOG shirt then. or that I love wearing chunky watches and my black simple nikes? Those, simply put are my eye make-up and bangles.

Infact, if i actually started dressing 'properly', and wearing slim dainty watches, listening to bands that don't rock, I think would be me over-compensating. trying to be more acceptable. thats fuckin bullshit.

gentlemen are defined by their actions, by their repect towards other people. not by the music they listen to (or pretend to listen to, because most of the times, they just hear it), or the books that they read. Fuck that shit. I like westerns, but you'll never catch me disrespecting a woman, even if she's not a lady.

People who work hard, are the people I admire.

and I like sopwith camels. and people who don't care about them, but know and respect the fact that I do. And i pray that whatever they want, works out for them. even if they won't tell me what they want.