music, bands, and advice

she was right.
she was so right.

i was going to try to sleep. i would fail. i would switch on my computer.

how did she know. and its not that i'm using this as an excuse to wake up. i just can't sleep. im so tired, yet, i refuse to drift of to sleep. listening to enigma :D. don't ask me why. something about them is unique.something about them is different. haven't heard 'silence must be heard' for 9 years now. the strangest things come back to you when u want to sleep, but can't. slipping into 'return to innocence :D'- love devotion emotion feeling!

my mom likes some enigma songs. my street cred (if i had any) is ruined if this blog goes public !!!

no. seriously. what is it about music that even if you don't want it to, it retains this hold on you. you may think you've forgotten a song. you hear it somewhere, you start singing it because even though you never memorised the lyrics, they stuck.

before sleeping, i heard bands i love, but never bothered to collect their songs, or couldn't find them. fugazi, black flag, the clash, the dillinger escape plan, and bhayanak maut- kickass generic indian metal. i was so inspired, i uploaded bhayanak maut tracks for lux to hear. if these idiots sang clean, she would prefer them over katatonia, the most incredibly average band of all times.

which got me thinking about a debate we had. about bands that were gay.like, they aren't bad bands.......its just that i don't expect any straight guy with reasonable levels of testosterone to like them. they are a bit like rohans 'passion' poster. ok. pretty flower, whatever, but no straight guy is going to have that on his wall. poets of the fall was the band in question that time. ooooh "carnival of rust" wow!!! the most mediocre song on the planet, from a below average band.

there are more bands like these. plenty. i have nothing against them. i just don't listen to the half baked garbage they produce. they cater to people unlike me. im not saying i have great taste in music, but i know what i like and what i don't. trust me, i thought that poets of the fall might be bearable live. THEY SUCK! hmmmm taken enough of a piss on poets of the fall. lets get to some other bands.....we have greenday catering to the homos who like to meet guys with pink hair, we have bands like 12 stones (or something like that), Mc fly, simple plan....all catering to teenage girls with eating disorders and bad grades. we have the pop brigade of the metal world. the first band that comes to mind is trivium. 1 decent song. 1. thats it. crap crap crap. we have lordi (fuck they are bad), sonic syndicate ( every 14 year old wannabe goth chicks dream. nobody else though, not unless rohan starts listening to britney spears metal), slipknot (how do i abuse thee, let me count the ways.....ok.1,2,3,4,5.........).....fuck. I'm not saying "become mayhem", but atleast do what you do with conviction. if you want to tear the stage with gut busting riffs, make them good. dont play with passion and emotion. if you want to write beautiful words and serenade your girlfriend, dont try to be fuckin uber-methull \m/ and make a fool of yourself. trivium. aaaaarggghhhh. talented musicians. talentless band. slipknot - 10 people with the equivalent talent of 1 man. joey jordison can suck my balls. there, i said it.

sonic syndicate. where do i begin. they have this \m/ song. when i heard the title, i was like fuck. ,maybe they don't suck donkeyball afterall. man was i wrong.



the awesome lyrics to their awesomly metal song "rebellion in nightmareland"

"You think you can shield your heart from me?
The dots connected and now I see
How I regret we shared fruit from the forbidden tree
I was entertained to a degree
But now you have your hooks too deep in me"


the title sounds like they deserve the title of "most metal band ever". btw, the song gets even more 'atski'

"The only dream we ever shared was a nightmare
The only being you ever cared about was yourself
This war was lost before it began
I'll pull my fail-safe, launch my plan
And once the dust settles
You wish you would be..."

wow. that gets a tear to my eye. for the wrong reason ofcourse.
there are other \m/ melodic death metal gems from this band ofcourse (they aren't a one puke wonder) .........

only inhuman-the lyrics made me puke. and the funniest shit is that these lyrics are growled out like the vocalist would have no problem kicking a baby and ripping a dogs heart out and eating it. but his lyrics translated are "me pussy ok?"

psychic suicide \m/ -
"I recognized your scars, because I have them too
It cured my contamination to speak of each other's misery"

"ALONE AGAIN IN MY BROKEN DREAMS
WHAT IS LOVE IF NOT A PSYCHIC SUICIDE
ALONE AGAIN IN MY RESTLESS DREAMS
LOVE IS NOTHING BUT A PSYCHIC SUICIDE " profound.

burn this city \m/ -

"Are we alive?
Because I heard a rumor
That the day we died was yesterday
So are we rotting now?
Can't find our graves?" i am left speechless.

double agent 616 -

"I took the fall and on came all the changes
Work your way through the cold shell of my heart
Just to find another layer of stone waiting
I know I'm not a good man, I never was and I never will" suck.my.balls.

ok. vented my frustration. the truth is that i only picked these songs which had the most \m/ metal\m/ names and really shitty 12 year old lyrics. their other songs are at par.....crap.

All the bands i listen to, are average, bad, shit in some way. but they make up for it in different areas. even if its just the passion with which they play their shit. without conviction, there is nothing.

you need balls. you need convistion. otherwise you're a guy going through life wearing a tattoo sleeve. trying to be cool. trying to be something you aren't with everyone laughing at you, or worse politely ignoring you but sniggering behind your back, or worst ignoring you completely.

i dont know whose benefit i wrote that for. future me, if you're reading this, wake up. if you become a half-baked pussy. shoot yourself. you're better off dead.