duck-hunt

what did the bartender say to the neutron when he wanted to pay for a drink?
"for you sir, no charge."

this made me laugh today. don't ask me why. its the geekiest joke on the planet. I'm a closet geek. not a nerd, im not hardworking enough. but yes, i love science. i love to know how things work.....and in my humble opinion, i think i know a little more than the average person. nowhere near what i want to know about. i really do want to be a mathematician one day. ok, thats taking it too far. but i want to understand enough about non-euclidian space, the concept of manifolds etc. I know something about them. but i want more. I want to understand the riemannian penrose inequality. at 16, i understood the problems that lay before anyone trying to prove fermats last theorum.....it was easy to understand why there would be a problem. but i want to know enough maths, i want to open my mind enough to actually understand each step of the proof.

thats my ambition. thats my goal.

and well, while I do that, I'm finally going to get around to learning how to put together a studio, play and record certain key instruments, record all these tracks i play in my head, and make my fortune, or be selfish and never let anyone hear them. haven't made up my mind yet.

to keep up my awesome super macho image, I will have to ride the incredibly sexy vintage triumph I'm going to buy and make my career in something ultra boring.

none of this means anything if I'm not a good person, a great boyfriend, a caring husband and an animal in bed. so yeah.....

oh. and an olympic gold. any sport. i just want one.

to be honest, it may look like I'm asking a bit too much of myself. but i actually believe i can do all of this. I have to do this. this is top priority. if I can't finish this....when the fuck will I act in a sitcom, do aerobatic flying, and be a professional stunt driver?

so much to do. so little time.

Is it just me or is that saying flawed....like where the english is concerned. Its wrong.
so little time. honestly. EPIG FAIL.

I'm going to buy a sexy drum kit. soon. I just have this feeling. in my bones. and then, I'm going to rip everyone a new asshole with my playing......after I practice for 4 years :P.

wow. i just realised how much i like quality polyrythmic metal drumming. meshuggah, here i come baby.